Today I read a post from Marsha Drews at Other Such Happenings that has brought true joy to my soul today. Be sure to click on the link and take the time to read it. You will be blessed for sure! Marsha has a deposit in Heaven. Her son, Christian (almost 4) drowned in her backyard on August 26, 2008. I found Marsha on a homeschool website and have been touched how she leans upon the Lord through her journey of grief. I follow her blog and it brings me smiles upon smiles.I have never met Marsha or even spoken to her. However, we have a special bond. We both have deposits in Heaven and we both love the Lord Jesus Christ and know that He has a purpose for our children being in Heaven. A special bond, indeed.
Sometimes I wonder if I am glorifying the Lord with the tears I shed for missing Josiah. It’s been 10 years. When does grief end? I know He cares. His word tells me that He captures each tear in a bottle.
Psalm 56:7-9 (King James Version)
7Shall they escape by iniquity? in thine anger cast down the people, O God.
8Thou tellest my wanderings: put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?
9When I cry unto thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for God is for me.
Dear Lord, I want to be fit too!!! Thank you for bringing special ladies into my life that know my heartache too and always remind me to keep my eyes upon YOU! Thank you for Josiah and for Your perfect plan!
I am so humbled by your words, Dawn. And I am so glad that we have more than just our children in common, but that I can truly call you a SISTER in Christ!
Sweet sister, keep pointing to Him. Keep trusting God’s PERFECT Plan, even when you don’t understand.
are they not in thy book? I love that part. He knows it all, He records it all, He captures it all… We are never alone and not a tear escapes our eyes without our Heavenly Father knowing. Thank you for reminding me of that tonight! Just when I needed to hear it the most.
Much love,
Marsha
The knowledge of your loss will never be wiped away, it will always be a remembrance. However, God uses that grief to make us pliable and moldable to image, according to His desires and designing, accomplishing what He willed through the trial. For me, as every claim to my own wants, hopes, desires, ambitions, rational thinking, what if’s, and claims to self vanished through every wrestling match I encountered with God, through every tear and humble submission to the Lord’s plan, accepting He has allowed what He has in my life, there cames gradual healing and letting go of the heart wrenching grief and pain that comes through deep trials. It takes time, for our life and growing is a process, but the pain and aching becomes less intense, and is replaced by an all knowing peace and power that says “God owns this now” even though I can never go back and change the past. The more we allow the Lord to deal with us in our pain, the easier it gets as we face those trials in His strength, on our knees, and crying out to Him.
Thanks, Vicki. I am so thankful for our journey with Josiah. I tremble when I think of where I might be if it weren’t for the journey of grief with Josiah. From the moment of conception, we knew the LORD had a special and perfect plan for this child. His plans are perfect ALWAYS. Thanks for taking time to visit and be an encouragement to me today. Abundant blessings of JOY!